Okay this will be another rant again, I guess these following two months I will be frustrated and depressed like fuck. Because of the exam, I really spend most of my time siting in my room and nerd around, and yet it is not that efficiency as I thought. Things didn't keep up with my planned schedule.
Last Thursday, I saw this senior in my contract class, I think he is retaking his A-Levels for the third time now, if not, why was he in my class? I'm just assuming, I don't want to mention his name here, because people might misunderstood and thinking I'm trying to humiliate him, this world is scary with terrible people. Seeing this, I'm really afraid, I don't want to be in his position. And my lecturer aka Mr Murali kept saying things that he knows it will pressure us, he is not kind but he is inspiring, I actually agree to what he said. I do think I take thing lightly, and I know if I can pull off this shit now, I surely can't handle degree. I told mom about the senior case, the she said there is alot people passed their exam and enrolled to degree. I KNOW! But I don't want to pass with 2 Es, this is the least thing I ever wanted, I want a decent result.
I'm not naturally born smart and I have no talent at all, study is all I'm decent at, if I can't do it well, then I don't know what can I do anymore. So just work harder and harder. Determination and ambitious nature could get you anywhere you desired, just have faith in yourself, you will eventually get there.
My face condition is getting worse in this two months, I don't know why, it made me so upset. Gosh, please just heal it yourself can or not?!
Alright, I should go back to my books now, am doing the note for the last chapter in tort :( And contract is waiting for me tomorrow. I'm not sure whether is it really that stress or this is my first world problem, whatever, I hope everything will turn out fine.
World peace :) and pray for Boston
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